It’s interesting to stop and think about desires that have been given by God, and yet also to realize that just because a desire may be from God, there is no assurance that God will fulfill that desire.
In my life, the desire to be married has been strong for four years. Even when I was a little girl, I wanted to grow up to be a wife and a mommy. My perfect scenario would have been graduating from college, getting married, and starting a family right away. But, like so many other things, God had other plans for me. My desire for marriage only intensified when Carrie’s life followed my perfect scenario. She was in a serious relationship less than a year after we graduated from highschool and was married shortly after that.
From many sources, I knew that the desire for marriage was a godly desire. Scripture speaks of the blessing marriage is. Yet, as the months and years passed, it became harder and harder to wait patiently for God’s timing. The difficulty was not primarily that I wanted to be married . . . but that God hadn’t promised me that I would get married.
A desire that has no promise of fulfillment is very difficult to live with. On the days when I longed to be married, the deep (almost painful) ache of desire stemmed primarily from the knowledge that I had a godly desire . . . that might never come to fruition. It was certainly feasible that I would be single my entire life, always desiring marriage but never seeing the fulfillment of that desire. I knew that would be ok; God had a plan. But it’s hard to long for something . . . and at the same time to acknowledge that God may have other plans.
I rather think everyone goes through at least one season in life like this (probably more than one) . . . a time when you long for something but must come face to face with submitting to God’s will even when it means facing life without fulfillment of a desire.
The question is why does God give such desires that he doesn’t fulfill? I believe we can’t truly know the mind of God, but at the same time there are many lessons to be learned from desires such as these. God has a plan and a purpose; he knows what he is doing.